In my current life, I do live in bad faith according to existentialism. I wake up at 5 every morning to go to work until around 1 or 2 and then I go to work at my second job around 4 and don't get home until 9 or later. I do this everyday aside from Tuesday's and Thursday's when I go to school. It's hard for me to find time to do anything, when all I really want to do is sleep whenever I can because I know I'll have to wake up and do it all again the next day. But, this is my choice. I make this choice because I don't want to have to worry about money while I'm in college and paying all of my bills. Both of my jobs are as a server which means great tips, but that also means I have to deal with angry, annoying customers on a regular basis which honestly just makes my job harder.
If I were to picture myself as a existential hero, I wouldn't change too much about my life because it's not a bad life, I'm happy for most of it. However, there are a few things I would change. For starters I would quick my morning job and open my availability at my night job so I would just be working at the one restaurant, which would give me the most money. Another thing I would change is I would start doing color guard again. It really is my passion and I'm great at it. The things that keep me from doing it now are that it is very expensive and to participate in an independent guard(a color guard out of high school) is extremely time consuming. I would also like to start coaching color guard again, I did when I first graduated but gave it up when I moved to Arizona. These changes would honestly make me feel like I would be living my life to the fullest.
I can agree to your schedule so much because my life is the same way Mondays Wednesdays and Fridays I work at my first job from 8-3 and from there I work at my second job from 5-10. And thats how those 3 days pretty much go. Tuesdays and Thursdays I go to school from 8:30-2:15 and as soon as I get home I eat shower and take a power nap then work 5-10. So during the week its pretty hectic on top of all that I manage to go to the gym for atleast an hour a day 5 days out the week. And go to wrestling practice atleast twice a week typically on the weeks. So I understand the struggle and can relate to that so much, but at the end of the day we make it happen, and I feel like these skills are going to benefit us so much later down the road.
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